i have decided that 12:57 a.m. is the emptiest moment i have ever had. there is just nothing.

no voices, no inner "what if" to ponder. there is no awakening and no sleep. there is just me and the laptop light in the dark, and the underwhelming realization that 12:58 is no better.


i crave sleep. it doesn't seem to return the favor tonight.


12:59. oh well.