QUE SERA

if nothing gets in the way of plans, i'm seeing dave soon. i'm not sure what i think about that. why am i feeling pessimistic about it now that it's coming? why am i more anxious than excited? in my head, i guess i'm telling myself that whatever will be will be.

please don't get me wrong..it's not like i don't want to see him.. I DO! but i got mixed feelings about it. i'm scared now. i can't figure out where this thing is headed with us.

ugggh...

i'm so sick of myself! blah. i want to be less complicated.

so anyway, these are the rambling thoughts on my mind today.